Monday, October 20, 2008

The Other Side

I dont know if anyone else has experienced this before, but there has been, until just recently, a point in my life, where I would go through the motions of "God: just to remind myself that I still believed in Him. But now, on the tail end side of struggle and the dreaded waiting stage of life, the love and ultimate unconditional love and gratitude I have for God and his grace is two fold. I have seen the power and answered pray from a desperate plea for help ATLEAST 3 times in the last two weeks. God has guided me decision making and after making some big decisions, He has poured out affirmation. After conviction, He showed me multiple solutions, and after giving in faith, He blessed me in faithfulness.

I do not deserve this at all. I am worthless with out Jesus blood. Yet to think that God smiles down on me, and I sure, laughs at me when I look totally retarded, makes me fill with tears and weap with thanksgiving.

I went on the HOPE (Hands of Praise and Evangelism) trip this weekend to the Carmi Childrens home and then to Logan St. Baptist Church on sunday, and basically cried the whole time Nicky did the signs to Philips, Craig, and Dean's song; "Your grace still amazes me. Your love is still a mystery. Each day, I fall on my knees, because your grace still amazes me."

I know that I am being very blanketed about what I am talking about, but I dont think the subject really matters at this point. God needed me to see his faithfulness and He got me good. And on top of that He gave me the bestest man in the world to help me discover it. And the fam...

God is good.

Psalms 61
1 Hear my cry, O God;
listen to my prayer.
2 From the ends of the earth I call to you,
I call as my heart grows faint;
lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

3 For you have been my refuge,
a strong tower against the foe.

4 I long to dwell in your tent forever
and take refuge in the shelter of your wings.


Shannon Leigh Anderson said...

Hey girl.
I love your passion. And I love you. I love that I can count on you for some good Godly truth, We should totally get together soon!:)

Dani said...

I love this is so true! I think sometimes God leaves us in the dark about His plan on purpose, to prove to us that if we take a step, He'll do the rest. But He is ALWAYS faithful! I'm so glad that you're settling in, I want to hear about the new job!