Friday, February 3, 2012

A Man of Few Words...

So, we were meeting at this bar for nathan's friend, Ronnie's, birthday.  I knew it was gonna be bar food, and I knew that I would prob want a Coors so I thought I will try one more time.  I felt so weird and nathan and I had been praying for this, so i'd try.  

I swung by the walgreens on my way home.  I picked up the ept and some other things to make it look like that wasnt all that I was picking up.  The guy that checked me out at the register was nice and polite.  As he handed me my bag, he said,"If you are congradulations.  We just had our first and she's the best."  I met his eyes slightly shocked...."Thank husband and I have been praying really hard."  We exchanged smiles and i left.  

I got home and first thing I did was clean the cat's litter box.  I dont know why i remember that.  I think it was to convince myself that I still has responsibility stirring around in my head somewhere...and it needed it...Then me and the ForFor (that's my cat) went to the bathroom.  And I prayed.  I prayed out loud that i could really use a nice cold beer but i would trade beer for the rest of my life for this to be the chance to have a baby.  I took the test.  I didnt look at it.  I set on the counter and I prayed again.  Nathan had his Bible sitting right on the counter there, and I opened it.  And read it...

1 “I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
   5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. 8 This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

That would be John 15:1-8  I shed a tear and smiled big and picked up the test... It was light.  But i just knew it.  I hopped in the shower fast and the whole time i just knew it.  

I made myself extra cute b/c i felt extra cute.  I WAS PREGNANT! :)  I was meeting nathan there. I was trying to figure out the whole ride how to tell him.  I knew he wouldn't say much, whatever he said.  But i still wanted to be clever.  It had snowed enough to make things slick and I knew nathan would have to get up and work the next morning.  And it was COLD and his coat was in my back seat.  I met him in the parking lot of the bar and he immediately was ready to go inside b/c he was cold.  I said hey wait.  

"You and I are gonna have a baby."  *not very clever mind you...*
"Ha! Really.  I really dont know what to say right now." Big Smiles. 

He hugged me and kissed me and we headed in.  He ordered me a root beer and we held hands almost the whole nite.  He was taking care of me and that spoke volumes.

I'm pretty sure we're not ready, but that's not important.  God's got that under control.  We've started the worrying, house, insurance...but we'll be just fine.  I know it.  I just know it.  

Wow....a baby... hmm...
Thank you, Jesus.